Do I want to be a narcissist? Well, no. Do I want to believe it's all about me? Of course not. So I am working on it. I'm conscientiously lowering my expectations of people. I'm <trying> to speak less and listen more. I admit, I don't always succeed. But I am trying. It's a work in progress, and I'm afraid it's just a side effect of living through something "big". I have to believe that other people have dealt with this (at least that's what I tell myself to make me feel better).
But that reminds me of a song I learned in grade school. Have a listen, if you're interested, and enjoy :).
You are certainly not alone on this Katie. We have also had to deal with all the questions. Luckily for us, we don't have the cancer problems, but our boys do have Epilepsy, which can be just as life threatening.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'll do just fine. Oh, and what a lovely song. And I agree, he is very definitely still working on me.:)
There are times when it is difficult to "not" be narcissistic, when your children are involved. It was the same with me, when my son was diagnosed last year with FrontalTemporal Lobe Dementia.The fact that he is an adult doesn't mean anything. When all conversation becomes about your child or children, suddenly it seems the whole world revolves around you and your family. It's not a pleasant feeling. But as Terrie says, you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteI needed that reminder about speak less and listen more. The world would be a much better place if we all did that! Hugs to your Emma, I cannot imagine what it would be like watching your child endure a major illness.
ReplyDeleteThank you for stopping by and sharing, Terrie and Mikki. I wish your sons well.
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you, Leandra!